The Ramblings of a Menopausal Woman

I’m gonna cut to the chase. I quit my job.

Short story long…

Technically I turned in my resignation. My last day is today, and I have zero real plans after that. I have some ideas, but nothing set in stone. I would really love to do some traveling. At least one domestic trip and one international would be ideal. The rest of the time I want to do all the stuff I want to do at home but never feel like I have enough time. I’m tired and I just want a break.

I have been working a full time job for over 35 years and I just don’t want to do it anymore. I have a rare opportunity to do just that, and I think it’s worth trying. I know there’s a risk that at the end of my year off I could have trouble getting a job, but that is a risk worth taking. I want to explore. I want to make my own schedule and not have to request days off. I want to be the boss of my entire schedule for a change. I want to travel when I can still walk several miles a day. We’ll see if I can figure out a way to be my own boss along the way.

I am just so tired of the day to day grind and something had to change. My job, coworkers, and the company I worked for are all great. But that was the thing, for the first time in my life I had weekends and holidays off. I got to work from home. There was no reason I shouldn’t be happy, but I wasn’t. Maybe it’s because last year was tough and that just put life in different perspective. Maybe it’s because menopause has really fucked with my brain and my tolerance for things I don’t want to do anymore is at an all time low. Maybe I’m just tired and want a longer vacation than just a couple weeks. Or maybe I’m not cut out for the 9-5 and I need a schedule and job as unpredictable as my menopausal mood swings. Maybe it’s all of the above. Who knows? I guess that part I will figure out along the way.

In the meantime, I am trying to plan out what I want to do with this year. The way I figure it, if I can set aside approximately a month for international travel and a month for domestic travel, that would really make the most of my time off. I would really like to plan a trip to New Zealand and stay for a few weeks but that is going to take some planning and budgeting. One other idea we have been floating around is doing a cross country roadtrip. I would love to load up Clay and Clara and drive across the country, stopping to visit friends and family along the way.

Obviously it’s much easier to dream about big plans than to do them, but we’ll see. All I know is I am so excited and terrified at the same time. Maybe it’s time to make Balls and Wieners a reality? All I know is for at least the next year my job is going to be how to create the best life possible for myself, Clay, and our little family. Wish me luck!